Monday, November 7, 2011
judging others
We all do it. Judging others. Even though we have the best of intentions, we do it. Today I was reminded of how cruel people could be and that just when you think you might know someone, they can surprise you. I know I have made comments about a friend named Karma for a few people, but to take delight in someone else's misfortune or unhappiness, I just cannot understand. I am struggling with life and the choices and challenges it presents us. I am unsure of what path to take and it is weighing heavily on my mind.
quick happy
friday: an enjoyable evening with my husband and the boy child that included shopping and a meal out.
weekend happiness: no work. gut busting laughter with my kids. farts - hey, they are funny!
today: i am struggling with a positive mood today for many reasons. but i will fall back on my every monday happiness.....Castle night on tv. what a fun way to end a crappy day.
weekend happiness: no work. gut busting laughter with my kids. farts - hey, they are funny!
today: i am struggling with a positive mood today for many reasons. but i will fall back on my every monday happiness.....Castle night on tv. what a fun way to end a crappy day.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
dancing happiness
bellydance class this evening. total happiness and just what i needed. the current choreo is a bit challenging for me which is a good thing. a friend from work is attending this session and it's fun to see her having a good time trying something new.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
difficult week
it has been an interesting and difficult week so i have been sucking, to say the least, on posting for my little happiness project. the point was to think positively on a shitty day, but that has been difficult the last few days. i have been feeling way out of sorts and quite irritable. work sucks major ding dong. the kids have been just awesome...not. so here i am back on the bubble for happiness.
sunday/monday - shitty mood, but fun trick-or-treating with the kids
tuesday - took a day off for mental health, spent the majority of the daytime hours lounging and watching tv. pretty darn awesome. until the husband came home. that was not so awesome of an evening.
today - celebrating a new disney client! they are visiting the world in just over two weeks, nothing like a last minute trip to make one's children happy. ;) also got some news on a friend, he's having surgery next week to fix up his sinuses, or lack thereof i guess....but the really happy part is they don't have to remove his face to do the surgery. that is a totally a great thing!
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life update as well...
P has continued to have weekly therapy sessions and we have all been impressed in the progress he's made. We've tried some techniques for sensory processing disorder, which we essentially are going to treat him as if he has. We worked with a weighted vest last week, which was quite the challenge, but we think having a weighted blanket will help him more. Project for the winter for me - making a weighted blanket since they cost usually over $100. We saw an ENT today to check out P's structure since he snores and moves so much during sleep. Tonsils are a good size and after a nifty x-ray, found out his adenoid is large as well....so a T&A is scheduled for December. (Seriously, how cool is it to say T&A for my son. Lame, I know but it made me chuckle) His pedi neuro appt is in two weeks, we'll are planning to still go for the consult and see what they say.
A has been well. Homework is usually no issue, but her mood seems to be more touchy lately. I'm hoping it is not the beginning of hormones or something like that. That is waaaaaaayyyy too early for me. She goes back to see the doc in a few weeks for a med check and we'll discuss weaning her off the meds in Jan, which makes me nervous as hell to think about.
Things between J and I have not been totally awesome of late. Life is a challenge these past 6 months and some days have been better than others. Moments of so many emotions have occurred and while the bad situations have sucked, it has enriched our relationship for the long term. So I imagine. Right now. Oh well. Partnership is a journey, right?
sunday/monday - shitty mood, but fun trick-or-treating with the kids
tuesday - took a day off for mental health, spent the majority of the daytime hours lounging and watching tv. pretty darn awesome. until the husband came home. that was not so awesome of an evening.
today - celebrating a new disney client! they are visiting the world in just over two weeks, nothing like a last minute trip to make one's children happy. ;) also got some news on a friend, he's having surgery next week to fix up his sinuses, or lack thereof i guess....but the really happy part is they don't have to remove his face to do the surgery. that is a totally a great thing!
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life update as well...
P has continued to have weekly therapy sessions and we have all been impressed in the progress he's made. We've tried some techniques for sensory processing disorder, which we essentially are going to treat him as if he has. We worked with a weighted vest last week, which was quite the challenge, but we think having a weighted blanket will help him more. Project for the winter for me - making a weighted blanket since they cost usually over $100. We saw an ENT today to check out P's structure since he snores and moves so much during sleep. Tonsils are a good size and after a nifty x-ray, found out his adenoid is large as well....so a T&A is scheduled for December. (Seriously, how cool is it to say T&A for my son. Lame, I know but it made me chuckle) His pedi neuro appt is in two weeks, we'll are planning to still go for the consult and see what they say.
A has been well. Homework is usually no issue, but her mood seems to be more touchy lately. I'm hoping it is not the beginning of hormones or something like that. That is waaaaaaayyyy too early for me. She goes back to see the doc in a few weeks for a med check and we'll discuss weaning her off the meds in Jan, which makes me nervous as hell to think about.
Things between J and I have not been totally awesome of late. Life is a challenge these past 6 months and some days have been better than others. Moments of so many emotions have occurred and while the bad situations have sucked, it has enriched our relationship for the long term. So I imagine. Right now. Oh well. Partnership is a journey, right?
Friday, October 28, 2011
punkin time
We had a punkin carving day with the kids and our nephew last weekend. The kids had fun and it was cool to see the older two select patterns and then do what they needed to create their masterpiece. The punkin's turned out great and here is some of our fun.....
This is a crappy photo, but I love the look on his face!
Here is another fun one where the boy looks like a vampire with his punkin behind him.
The girl hard at work.....
And believe it or not, but it was storming when we conducted this activity....thunder and hail!
Who can resist some yummy roasted punkin seeds? I tried a new recipe and it was sure tasty!
The finished products
a weeks worth
it has been almost a week since i posted for my project. part of me says it is a fail, but i know that i need to honor the craziness that is my life and allow myself to say it is okay if i cannot get to it that night. i do want to be posting more often however.
so here is a week's worth of happiness:
10/24 - day 6: it is monday, today i am simply thankful and happy that i am breathing
10/25 - day 7: hearing a slice of happiness that a friend is experience. not much better than being happy for someone else.
10/26 - day 8: a slow report day at work. makes the day tolerable.
10/27 - day 9: new opportunity. nothing wrong with checking things out with a new opportunity.
10/28 - day 10: lunch with an awesome friend whom i have missed terribly. it was full of awesomeness.
so here is a week's worth of happiness:
10/24 - day 6: it is monday, today i am simply thankful and happy that i am breathing
10/25 - day 7: hearing a slice of happiness that a friend is experience. not much better than being happy for someone else.
10/26 - day 8: a slow report day at work. makes the day tolerable.
10/27 - day 9: new opportunity. nothing wrong with checking things out with a new opportunity.
10/28 - day 10: lunch with an awesome friend whom i have missed terribly. it was full of awesomeness.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
happiness project weekend coverage
the happiness of this weekend.....child-free! grandparents took the kids friday and saturday evenings which allowed us to window shop, actual shop, commit the sin of gluttony. it has been awesome!
Thursday, October 20, 2011
happiness project day 4 & 5
yesterday: good days at school for the youngest one
today: enjoying an impromptu a capella performance at culver's
today: enjoying an impromptu a capella performance at culver's
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
happiness project day 3
a sleeping child is my happiness at the moment. no fighting at bedtime, no more "but mom, i need...", just slumber on the couch because he is so exhausted.
Monday, October 17, 2011
happiness project day 2
Things that made me happy today:
1) silliness. i got a case of these this afternoon and i think the hubby thought i was off my rocker. it was great!
2) viewing a fantastic photograph
3) my favorite show is on tonight....Castle. i don't believe i need to say more. ;)
1) silliness. i got a case of these this afternoon and i think the hubby thought i was off my rocker. it was great!
2) viewing a fantastic photograph
3) my favorite show is on tonight....Castle. i don't believe i need to say more. ;)
Sunday, October 16, 2011
happiness project day 1
my children and their cousin playing so awesomely together today. i have no idea how they managed it for so many hours, but they did. and i am proud of each of them
Accepting Life As Is
“Kiss your life. Accept it, just as it is. Today. Now. So that those moments of happiness you’re waiting for don’t pass you by.”” ~ Unknown
I came across this quote today when visiting a cool site I follow about Sensory Processing Disorder and it resonated with me. I feel as if we are in wait mode currently with Phoenix and I struggle at times with that. I often tell myself "just get through today or only one more month until his neuro appointment." And then there are moments when he does something that is so, well, him. And it will cause gut-busting laughter or wide smiles at his antics or silliness.
My children have some issues. While they don't technically fall under the special needs category I think, for us they have special needs that some other kids do not have. And that is okay. With all of the struggles that we have been through and all of those yet to come, my children are perfect. And they bring happiness into my life.
I have been struggling of late. Enough that it has impacted my life enough that I made the decision to go back on some medication to help. I feel as if I never have down time to myself and while I am aware that I simply just need to take the time, that is always easier said than done. Home life is crazy. Work life is crazy. I am not managing my stress well at all. Some of it is not accepting what life simply is at the moment and wanting it to be better. Some of it is not taking time to honor myself and recharging. My negativity and the lack of positive morale at work is killing me and yet it has been difficult for me to stay positive and not buy into the sack of crap that work has become.
Perhaps I need to do a 30 day happiness project where I post at least one thing that made me happy that day.....that's an idea. I'll start today.
I came across this quote today when visiting a cool site I follow about Sensory Processing Disorder and it resonated with me. I feel as if we are in wait mode currently with Phoenix and I struggle at times with that. I often tell myself "just get through today or only one more month until his neuro appointment." And then there are moments when he does something that is so, well, him. And it will cause gut-busting laughter or wide smiles at his antics or silliness.
My children have some issues. While they don't technically fall under the special needs category I think, for us they have special needs that some other kids do not have. And that is okay. With all of the struggles that we have been through and all of those yet to come, my children are perfect. And they bring happiness into my life.
I have been struggling of late. Enough that it has impacted my life enough that I made the decision to go back on some medication to help. I feel as if I never have down time to myself and while I am aware that I simply just need to take the time, that is always easier said than done. Home life is crazy. Work life is crazy. I am not managing my stress well at all. Some of it is not accepting what life simply is at the moment and wanting it to be better. Some of it is not taking time to honor myself and recharging. My negativity and the lack of positive morale at work is killing me and yet it has been difficult for me to stay positive and not buy into the sack of crap that work has become.
Perhaps I need to do a 30 day happiness project where I post at least one thing that made me happy that day.....that's an idea. I'll start today.
Monday, October 10, 2011
trying something different
one of my goals is to be healthier, which in turn means more exercise. i do not want to do this with the focus on weight loss, although that is a beautiful side effect hopefully. ;) so to try something new, i've added a new ticker to my blog....see the top right side column. yes, from my home to walt disney world it is 1418 miles. and i intend to track the miles i walk daily/every couple days/weekly to see how long it would take me to walk there. can't hurt to try something new, eh?
take the risk
"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~Anais Nin (1903-1977)
this quote speaks volumes to me this evening. what to we have to lose if we take the risk? there are bigger risks than others and what we hold as value in those risk depends on our own perspective of course. but we face risks every day. many we never think of consciously. the ones that weigh heavy on our minds are the 'bigger' risks. should i quit my job? should i try to do my business full time? if i do this, how will it impact the kids? some of the answers come easier than others, but i know for a long time i have shied away from the risks and played things safely. and to me, that's not really living life to it's potential.
~Anais Nin (1903-1977)
this quote speaks volumes to me this evening. what to we have to lose if we take the risk? there are bigger risks than others and what we hold as value in those risk depends on our own perspective of course. but we face risks every day. many we never think of consciously. the ones that weigh heavy on our minds are the 'bigger' risks. should i quit my job? should i try to do my business full time? if i do this, how will it impact the kids? some of the answers come easier than others, but i know for a long time i have shied away from the risks and played things safely. and to me, that's not really living life to it's potential.
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