Tuesday, August 26, 2014

The Universe does it again

I signed up for and receive emails from the Universe. I love reading them and there are many times where the daily email fits for the life moment that is happening.  This is today's......

What if that one person in your life right now that you're not feeling so much love for, Denise, was also the one person in your life right now for whom you could make the greatest difference?

    The Universe

This hits so close to home right now, it might as well have dropped a house on top of me.  Rather than working at being upset, I need to address my perspective and work to see how I can be of assistance.  This person is struggling and I don't believe wants to look at just how much they are struggling.  This person is suffering and while I don't have the answers on how to exactly help, I know that I can do better to support this person.  I can stop judging, stop being angry with, stop criticizing, and practice more love, more acceptance, and more support.  

I can understand that at first glance, this comes across as a selfish writing.  What I have learned this last year is that I can only control my own side of the street, no one else's street.  I cannot change this person, but I can change how I react and interact with this person.  And in doing so, help us both.

Thursday, August 21, 2014


I have gotten away from writing again, which saddens me.  However, it is not enough to spur me to actually write.  There are moments when I think, "I need to write about this," but it never comes to fruition. 

I am struggling.  Partnership, professionally, personally.  I feel overwhelmed most of the time and often I just shut down emotionally as a response.  I have been working to allow myself to feel emotions, good and bad and all those inbetween, so shutting down is not a good thing. 

I want to get back into expressing myself, but I have this damn fear I need to work through.  I am so tired of being afraid of shit.  I know that opening myself up and being vulnerable will help, but it's so damn scary to do.