Wednesday, May 29, 2013


I used to have a bit of a problem with nail polish, but it has been years since that was the case.  However, I think I am getting back into the swing of things.....

This is my drawer with the nail goodies.  This is something I have been getting back into that is purely for me.  It puts me in touch with the feminine goddess inside me and allows some expression in a creative manner.  I have been keeping up with my toes most of the time and have been showing some TLC to my nails.  And it's been awesome.  I love it and it makes me happy.  I have struggled with embracing doing things just for me and this is something I can do that is subtle and does not take a great deal of time.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

something new

i have been working to find some new things to try and at the same time, receive a positive benefit from. and after much talking with friends and new people i've met, i am giving yoga a try.  okay, let me rephrase..i intend to give yoga a try. 

i had the most wonderful conversation with a really neat lady the other week, she is a yoga instructor and someone i think i could really learn and grow from.  i have a few friends who are really into yoga and one of them has been trying to bring it into the clients we serve at our place of employment. 

i am looking for something that allows me to connect with myself on a deeper and, quite frankly, better level.  Something that has me focusing on breathing, possibly meditation.  i am scared shitless i will not be able to do this for some reason.  completely irrational, i know, but it's something new and slightly intimidating and i am excited to try it.

ps.  everytime i typed yoga, i typed 'yoda' first....must be innate.  :)

Thursday, May 23, 2013


I know Zach's story has been making the rounds on social media, but I sat and watched his video this evening. Wow.  What an inspiration.

Universe talking

Someone shared with me that one can sign up to receive emails from the Universe.  And I promptly did so and I LURVE them something mucho.  You can enter things you want to "work on" when you sign up and each weekday morning I open my email to find a note from the Universe, which usually makes me smile and/or laugh.

Here is a random sampling from this last week's emails for me....

Everyone's scared, Denise.
Few carry on.
Keep calm,
    The Universe

Sometimes the best way to remain sane, Denise, is to love like crazy.
Works for me,
    The Universe

When you tough it out, hold the line, and stay the course, Denise, I promise you there will soon come a day when you look back over your shoulder, shake your head in dismay, and seriously wonder what all the fuss was about.
Just like all the other times,
    The Universe 

I seriously dig these messages.  They allow me to reaffirm some things I am working on with myself and cause me to think a bit deeper, or to even not think too damn deep.  Some days are spot fucking on for what I am feeling at that moment.  In the couple of months I have been receiving these, there was only one that I went "eh" to and that's pretty cool. 

I am also working to develop my own personal mantra, which is harder than one would think.  This is an exercise I am doing with my counselor and sounds cool & exciting when first talking about it, but is something I'm find much more difficult than I imagined it would be.  Who do I want to be?  Who am I already?  How do I truly see myself?  How do I want to see myself going forward?   Where do I fit in in this Universe?