Monday, January 12, 2015

Time for me to fly

In an effort to take care of myself, I've started tracking my food and exercise in My Fitness Pal.  I've tried off and on before, but would log info for a day or two and then forget about it.  Well, I'm a week in and haven't skipped a day yet.  Only two of those days, I was over my calories.  One of them was but about 50 calories and the other was a total loss, which I acknowledged.  It was a day when emotional eating 100% took hold and I am aware of it.  

With sticking with this for a week, it has already caused a few moments where I checked my calorie intake for the day before making a food choice.  And it has helped.  So, I'm going to also try and write about my journey as well.  Figured it's time for me to fly and just put it out there. 

At my highest weight, I weighed 244 lbs.  This was almost a year ago.  Currently, I've been hanging out between 235-238; however with some of the changes over the last few weeks and being honest with myself about why I'm eating, I have lost a few pounds and at my last weigh-in was 232 lbs. 

This journey isn't about me having a dramatic weight loss which involves a 21 day fix or paleo, etc....this journey is about me loving myself and believing that I am worthy of taking care of.  Self-love is the journey and my motivation.  The weight loss will come along with that just as the gain did all those years of self-loathing and hate.   It may be slow, but I need to go at my own pace.  I will push myself, challenge myself, and have days of failure, but it's one day at a time and a step backwards doesn't mean "I" am a failure or that I can use that as an excuse to quit my journey.

I look forward to this year and the opportunities that await.

1 comment:

Lisa said...

You can do this! Back in August I started on the Ideal Protein program through Aspirus. My starting weight was 253 (my all time heaviest). Just over 5 months later I am down 85 pounds. I never thought it was possible...but if I can do it I know you can too! Lisa