have you ever had a dream about a co-worker? you know the kind i'm talking about. not the 'hanging out shopping together' or a work related dream. the 'holy shit, that was hot' kind of dream. i admit i have had a dream in which a coworker kissed my neck the other year and that was quite embarrassing because he can be an odd duck. but the dream i had last evening, wow. that was hot. i woke up thinking 'what the hell was that' and could not look him in the eye today without feeling like i was turning tomato red in the face. i think it stemmed from the end of the Castle finale on monday night as that is almost how it started out. if my dream is even half true for this guy, his partner is one luck lady. ;)
Showing posts with label work. Show all posts
Showing posts with label work. Show all posts
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Monday, April 9, 2012
catching up
it has certainly been awhile since i have posted. sorry about that. life has been life and i continue to not take time to write. i have sat down to write this post a number of times in the last two weeks and finally here it is. i am meeting with my old supervisor tomorrow to discuss a job opening they have. my current employment has become a torture and i have discovered that it is causing me to change as a person. and i am not okay with the changes. the job itself i can do, but the micromanagement and mismanagement i can no longer stand. each day as i awake to the buzzing of the alarm, i have to give myself a pep talk to actually go to work. and when i round the corner to the office, i am filled with dread. i adore most of the people i work with and count many of them as friends. however friends can only do so much throughout the day and now that i was warned against socializing last week, i have taken the passive-aggressive stance of working with my office door closed. of course, the fucking windows they cut into our doors last year make it so anyone can still look in.
it all boils down to money in reality. do i keep working a job that i have come to loathe for the paycheck and the comfortableness we have at the moment or do i take the part time job at a prior place of employment making half the wage i make currently. there are pros and cons like any situation and that is what has been weighing on my mind. do i resign and hope to reclaim myself knowing that money cannot buy happiness? that leads to less stress for me, however the hubs will probably stress out more due to lack of extra fundage. the opportunity to work PT would allow me to build up my travel business more and volunteer at the kids school. but it also takes away the new camper next year or any large vacations in the coming years. i know that we would make it financially, we would have to readjust our spending of course, which is not a bad idea altogether anyway. less money = less stuff, right?
it is scary to think of making a change like this. but i know have come to appreciate life in a different manner this year. we can work and work and work to buy and buy, but things do not make a life. spending time together and doing quality things together makes a life. i am nervous to pass up the PT opportunity that is available at this time, knowing i would enjoy the job and a similar opportunity may not be available later. quite honestly, i am scared shitless to make this decision. but i know what i am doing right now is not healthy for me. it is unhealthy for my heart and soul, and ultimately that is why i need to make a change.
it all boils down to money in reality. do i keep working a job that i have come to loathe for the paycheck and the comfortableness we have at the moment or do i take the part time job at a prior place of employment making half the wage i make currently. there are pros and cons like any situation and that is what has been weighing on my mind. do i resign and hope to reclaim myself knowing that money cannot buy happiness? that leads to less stress for me, however the hubs will probably stress out more due to lack of extra fundage. the opportunity to work PT would allow me to build up my travel business more and volunteer at the kids school. but it also takes away the new camper next year or any large vacations in the coming years. i know that we would make it financially, we would have to readjust our spending of course, which is not a bad idea altogether anyway. less money = less stuff, right?
it is scary to think of making a change like this. but i know have come to appreciate life in a different manner this year. we can work and work and work to buy and buy, but things do not make a life. spending time together and doing quality things together makes a life. i am nervous to pass up the PT opportunity that is available at this time, knowing i would enjoy the job and a similar opportunity may not be available later. quite honestly, i am scared shitless to make this decision. but i know what i am doing right now is not healthy for me. it is unhealthy for my heart and soul, and ultimately that is why i need to make a change.
Monday, November 7, 2011
judging others
We all do it. Judging others. Even though we have the best of intentions, we do it. Today I was reminded of how cruel people could be and that just when you think you might know someone, they can surprise you. I know I have made comments about a friend named Karma for a few people, but to take delight in someone else's misfortune or unhappiness, I just cannot understand. I am struggling with life and the choices and challenges it presents us. I am unsure of what path to take and it is weighing heavily on my mind.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Thursday, September 18, 2008
not so patient anymore
I am still waiting to hear something on the job interview I had last week. sigh. This is a much longer process than I anticipated or have experienced before. My references were called on Mon/Tues, so I was hoping to hear something, anything, by yesterday. They interviewed 30 candidates and apparently chose 9 to call references on, and are looking to fill up to 4 positions. I was feeling pretty good at the beginning of the week, but I admit that my spirits are dwindling as each day passes. I walk with trepidation to the mailbox with fear that my rejection letter in there, only to see junk mail, cable tv ads, and "vote for me" info. This patience thing is starting to wear on me.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Busy week
Disney released some great offers this week and it's keeping me busy, which is a good thing! Free dining on most rooms/resorts for package guests staying in late Aug-mid Sept. It's an awesome deal!
But I had to be up at the butt-crack of dawn to get on the horn to call for the packges I have booked already for clients. The payoff is nice, but oiye, 5:45am does not make me a happy camper. ;)
But I had to be up at the butt-crack of dawn to get on the horn to call for the packges I have booked already for clients. The payoff is nice, but oiye, 5:45am does not make me a happy camper. ;)
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
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for Walt Disney World and we’ll give you a
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Saturday, December 29, 2007
No Go
Well, I got my letter the other day from the office where I interviewed. "Thanks, but no thanks." I'm okay with it, for the most part. Of course, there is always that piece of you that feels like shit and that you aren't good enough. But, all in all, I'm okay with it. Hopefully this means something better (read: closer) in my future. It would have been a great foot in the door, but I wasn't looking forward to driving 56 miles to work and back home each day.
The sucky thing is that the list of candidates expires on Feb 18th, so if I don't get anything in the next month I'll have to reapply and do the examinations again in Madison. And I'll be pissed if I drop in ranking. But what can I do?
The sucky thing is that the list of candidates expires on Feb 18th, so if I don't get anything in the next month I'll have to reapply and do the examinations again in Madison. And I'll be pissed if I drop in ranking. But what can I do?
Monday, December 17, 2007
Interview Day
I have my interview this afternoon.
*Update: Well it went alright. Pretty much as I expected. I should hear something in a few days I guess.
*Update: Well it went alright. Pretty much as I expected. I should hear something in a few days I guess.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
What it could mean
Many of my friends & family know that I am currently on the list of eligible candidates for a probation/parole agent. My chances of getting interviews are extremely high as I am currently ranked in the top section of the listing. As much as I would love to work within the county I reside in, that most likely won't be happening for a while to come. It looks like I'll have to accept a position in a neighboring county and after a year I can hope for a transfer if my home county has a position available.
What many don't know is that I interviewd for an area county in July, and was offered a postion. We didn't tell a great deal of people at the time, but I unfortunately had to turn down the position. It was a difficult decision and one that caused a great deal of personal anxiety. The timing was just not right for our family.
Well, I've got another interview scheduled for next month with a county next door. If offered, I will most likely take the position. It would mean a one hour drive to and from work each day, but hopefully it wouldn't be for more than a year or two. This is an unbelieveable opportunity for me, and I hope the interview goes well.
To turn down the position in July caused me to doubt myself and my abilities. I was fearful that another position would not come along and I had lost my one chance. It felt like I was giving up on my dream. I cannot express the relief and happiness I felt when I got the letter last week asking for an interview. I literally sat in the van at the mailbox with tears streaming down my face. I called Jason as soon as I drove into the driveway.
I have a month to go before the interview, so hopefully I won't psych myself out. Going back to work is obviously going to mean huge changes for our family and it won't be easy. But I'd be doing a job that I enjoy (hopefully) and we'd be having extra income that would be very beneficial. It does make me sad to know that I'll have to put the kids back into daycare. I was hoping to stay home with Phoenix until he was two, but he's a pretty social kid so I'm sure he'll do well. I think Ariana will have the more difficult time of it.
The fear of the unknown is powerful. Will driving 60 miles each way daily have a major impact on our lives? Will I be able to spend time with my kids each night or will I see them just as they are getting ready for bed? Will I be able to get up at the buttcrack of dawn again to get to work on time?
So many thoughts.
What many don't know is that I interviewd for an area county in July, and was offered a postion. We didn't tell a great deal of people at the time, but I unfortunately had to turn down the position. It was a difficult decision and one that caused a great deal of personal anxiety. The timing was just not right for our family.
Well, I've got another interview scheduled for next month with a county next door. If offered, I will most likely take the position. It would mean a one hour drive to and from work each day, but hopefully it wouldn't be for more than a year or two. This is an unbelieveable opportunity for me, and I hope the interview goes well.
To turn down the position in July caused me to doubt myself and my abilities. I was fearful that another position would not come along and I had lost my one chance. It felt like I was giving up on my dream. I cannot express the relief and happiness I felt when I got the letter last week asking for an interview. I literally sat in the van at the mailbox with tears streaming down my face. I called Jason as soon as I drove into the driveway.
I have a month to go before the interview, so hopefully I won't psych myself out. Going back to work is obviously going to mean huge changes for our family and it won't be easy. But I'd be doing a job that I enjoy (hopefully) and we'd be having extra income that would be very beneficial. It does make me sad to know that I'll have to put the kids back into daycare. I was hoping to stay home with Phoenix until he was two, but he's a pretty social kid so I'm sure he'll do well. I think Ariana will have the more difficult time of it.
The fear of the unknown is powerful. Will driving 60 miles each way daily have a major impact on our lives? Will I be able to spend time with my kids each night or will I see them just as they are getting ready for bed? Will I be able to get up at the buttcrack of dawn again to get to work on time?
So many thoughts.
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Choices
This is a big week for me, and our family. Decisions will be made that affect our lives. I am thankful for the opportunity to make choices. They may be difficult to make but we can make them. There are so many things floating in my head I can barely keep everything straight. If we did this, what would happen. If we chose not to go a particular route, how would it impact us? It's not easy, but choices will be have to be made.
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