Tuesday, April 7, 2009


Confession time. I am a juggler. I enjoy juggling too many balls in my life. Up to a point. And I think I've reached it.

Jason has always told me that I must have ten million things going on or I'm not happy. I'm a sucker for helping out and have a difficult time saying no for most things when it comes to volunteering or stepping up to the plate if no one else does. And I usually laugh it off. But I'm starting to feel the drain. And I'm not sure which ball to drop off the rotation. I've already backed way off posting on the forums I visit, I've stepped back from so much time on facebook.

What bothers me about my "need" to always be so god damned busy is that my family time and just general home care stuff starts to suffer. I've lost my balance and feel like I'm always one step behind, constantly playing catch up. I don't like it, but not sure if I don't like it enough to let go of my business.

I think I need to take a look at what are priorities for me and those things that are highest on the list must take precedence. And to let go of the things lowest on that list. Going back to work has been fantastic, but my work vs life balance is not working out so well.

Okay, enough of my whining. I need to get my shit together and just do it. No excuses.


Heather said...

Ah, I understand, but I'm the exact opposite - which is also a problem. If it's not my family and our time, I'm like trying to pin down an electric eel. I need to work on being *more* generous with my time.

I hope you get it all tweaked and leveled. Feeling out of balance is never good. I've missed seeing you around, btw!

mumma boo said...

I'm right there with you. Don't lose sight of "you" in that mix. It's hard to carve out time for yourself in the midst of all that, but you need to do it. Deep breaths, a glass of wine, whatever it takes to get things back on course. Good luck!

Amy said...

I tend to be this way too... and my husband is always telling me that I need to chill out, take some time for me, stop worrying about making everyone else happy, etc. but it's like programmed in my brain that I must have at least 20 things going on all at the same time and make EVERYONE ELSE happy and me? who cares about me? *sigh* I hope you are able to find a good balance soon ~ it sucks trying to balance work and home life sometimes. (((hugs)))