A year comes to a close

A year comes to a close

My goals for 2010 were as follows:

• Feel comfortable in my own skin
• Laugh even more
• Scrapbook more
• Be healthier
• Pay off debt / Sock $ away for house!
• Read, read, and then read some more
• Take more photos
• Experiment more with my camera

Let’s just say I did not get to a few of those.  Quite a few.  A few more than I thought I’d get to.  2010 saw us taking the plunge and buying a house after we paid off mucho debt in 2009 (yay!).  I did get some reading done, but not as much as I would have like.  I took the least amount of photos in 2010 than in years and did not explore my camera the way I wanted to.  Feeling comfortable in my own skin will always be a challenge me thinks as will being healthier.
I’ve learned a great deal this year as well.  I am not as strong as I pretend to be.  I am losing patience as I get older apparently and quite enjoy being pissy while I drive.  I appreciate my family in a new way this year and have come to accept that while I love the people close to me, I don’t always have to like them on occasion.  And that is totally okay.
I have big hopes and dreams for 2011.  And that is for another post.

Moving Along

After discussion and more discussion, we are seeking an appointment with a psychiatrist for children.  I had to complete this huge packet of information before they will schedule an appointment and apparently it’s a 3-4 month wait anyway.  Fingers crossed we get in before March.  The pedi will not prescribe meds since A is so young, but she’s doing what she can to get us in sooner than usual.  Of course, we make the decision to try meds and A has had a great couple of weeks.  Sure, there have been ups and downs, but overall she is doing good.
I feel like we are making the right choice for A and our family, but it is still so damn scary.  Like I’m about to jump off this precipice with no return.  All of the what if’s.  But they exist anyway, don’t they.  All I can hope is trying the mds helps her mellow out a bit and be more smooth with not such wide swings of emotion and worry.
I came across a book entitled “Shut Up About Your Perfect Kid” and I love it.  It’s about life with special kids.  I haven’t finished the book yet, but from what I’ve started it seems like good reading.  It makes me laugh and not feel so alone in the thought that I wish some people would tone down the talk about how “perfect” their kids are.  We all know at least one person who is like that.    Some of you have shared your struggles with me, and I deeply appreciate it.  I haven’t taken the time to say thank you (and I’m sorry for that), but your words (J and D) touched my heart.
So for now we are simply moving along.  Moving along in doing more research with reading, moving along with doctor/counselor appointments, moving along with open minds.

moving on

I've decided to move on to another location.  I'll be sending facebook messages out with the new link.  If I miss you or you are not on facebook, shoot me an email at dlang76 at yahoo dot com and leave me a comment that you did so.

Technically Challenged

I was attempting to change the template design of the blog, but I seem to be having technical difficulties.  Awesome.  I go into template designer and nothing loads.  No matter how long I sit there.  Frickfrack!

Holidays

It's been awhile again.  Sorry about that.  It's the same old story, swamped as usual. 

I hope that each of you had a spectacular holiday season so far, whatever you celebrate.  Ours has been filled with ups and downs, but memorable nonetheless.  The kids ate entirely too much sugar.  We ate too much food in general on at least one occasion.  More for my dearest husband. ;)  Lovely gifts were exchanged and it was wonderful to visit with family that I haven't talked with for a time.

The new year is coming, and coming up quick.  It has me doing my annual thinking of what I'm getting out of life and how/what to change.  My goals for 2010 were somewhat successful, a few were not reached.  Whether I pass those along to next year or not remains to be seen.

I've also been thinking that perhaps the reason I'm not writing is due to the possibility of certain eyes reading this.  And with that, I've been weighing whether or not to relocate the blog.  I've fallen back into the trap of caring what other people think and while I know it's not right or correct, it does weigh on my mind.  So, I'm tossing that idea around.  Those of you who are "regulars," no worries.  I'll be sure to keep you posted.

This mixed bag for a post will come to an end now.  Again, may each of you have a wonderful holiday season!